try your diligence to conquer the hardships or drawbacks,confused felling is caused by nothing to do or doing some unuseful affair. time flies,college time is limited and will fly away in a moment,please make good use of it.i am a sophomore now,i had undergone the same experience like yours in freshman year,but i asked my brother and uncle about their experiences and listened some excellent advice from them.(including read more valuable books do what you want to or something benefit to your future life)i overcomed my obstacle with willpower finally!yes ,you can as well,best wishes!